It’s a simple thing for me to sit down and write this, yet the magic is in the simplicity. I’m building emotional muscles, and it’s not so different than bodybuilding. Inner strength isn’t about not having any anxiety at all, but rather being strong enough within ourself that anxiety becomes kind of fun, like lifting weights.
I have new found emotional freedom, and I’m not certain what it will lead to, but I know that it feels good. Sometimes I worry about what someone else might be thinking about me, but that doesn’t feel good, and I let go of those thoughts as best as I can. It’s interesting to be so worry-less. I’m essentially the same person, minus that particular trait. It served its purpose for a time.
It’s a tricky thing; letting go of beliefs. Old beliefs are old because they’ve become a part of us. For example, anxiety exists because of certain beliefs, but being anxious about anxiety is the core belief that keeps it alive. It’s embedded in the DNA of the personality. To let go of a core belief feels a bit like some part of me is dying, but I remind myself that it’s the old belief that’s going away, and what’s left is the real me.