I woke up today with the insight that I want to do things for my own sake. That’s what I want to be about, and I think it’s the most natural way to live.
I’m aware of excuses, blaming, and justifications, which are unnecessary. I’m also aware of “pushing against.”
For example, thinking or talking about what I don’t want, which brings more of it to me, and feels bad in the process. Of course, knowing what I don’t want helps me to know what I do want. The work is to consistently focus on what I want, or if I’m not doing that, to defocus my thoughts.