I’m rediscovering fun; things like watching movies, listening to music, painting, and writing. It used to be easy, but now it feels like I have to learn how to do it all over again. These days, everything seems to trigger bad memories; even good ones can turn bad on a dime.
I can feel the resistance – the blocks, the obstacles, the anxiety, the depression, the antagonism – but I choose to no longer fight with myself. Instead, I’m there for myself no matter what; something that was missing before. Now I’m taking responsibility for my own happiness.
Because I’m watching more movies, I’m seeing my life as a story (even more so than usual). Dreams I’ve had since I was a kid are starting to come true. Now it’s that part in the movie where the main character has to take a leap of faith.
Today, I want to talk about vocation.The main reason I blog is because I enjoy it, but also because I love writing. I do it every day because that’s what works for me (and it’s an excuse for me to take photos).
Being an Artist
If you’re interested in my art and illustration work, then I invite you to check out sedonethongvilay.com. I’m currently brainstorming how to integrate all of my interests and talents into a synergistic whole so that I can put my ideas, creativity, services, and products out there in the world. The good news is that this is as clear as I’ve ever been about it.
Being a Writer
GBM has always been about self-improvement–and it’s definitely helped me improve myself–but it’s also helped me to improve my writing skills. Blogging and writing every day has made it easier for me to face the blank page. I’m working on (and intend to write and publish) a series of books, and GBM feels like the right/write space for that.
Being a Musician
Performing music is a more recent endeavor, but I’ve always loved it. I have ideas for videos which will complement my art and writing, and I want to include my passion for music. My intention is to write and perform my own songs one day.
I’m in the process of establishing a personal brand. As such, I’m calling myself an artist, writer, and musician. It’s important in life to follow your dreams, and achieving your dreams is all about clarity, focus, and vision.
Blogging is one of those things that surprises me by how long I’ve kept up with it. The years have flown by, which probably means it’s something I truly enjoy. Blogging helps me to discover who I am.
The journey is about self-discovery. Self-discovery is “an act or process of gaining knowledge or understanding of your abilities, character, and feelings” (according to Siri). I like that.
There’s nothing out there that’s happening to us. It’s co-creative and cooperative. The way we are within must be reflected without.
Some people take great joy in traveling to foreign places and beautiful locales, and while I love the idea of doing that, I sincerely enjoy simple pleasures like finally having my very own place to call home. I also enjoy having my own bank account after all these years. Small things to some, maybe, but the sense of accomplishment, for me, is huge.
The Year of Re-invention
2017 will be the year I truly re-invent myself, and perhaps it’ll be that for you, too. Re-invention starts at ground zero (from scratch); letting go of who we thought we were, and being a nobody; empty of preconceived notions and assumptions. And yet, within this nobody are all the years of accumulated wisdom and life experience that will guide us from within, and give us the confidence (and courage) to go on.
I’ve found that being who I truly am does feel a bit foreign, but it also feels right, and expansive. I used to agonize over who I’m supposed to be, how I’m supposed to act, and why I feel like a bunch of separate people in one body rather than a whole (and happy) individual. I’ve learned to honor all of the different parts of myself that make up the whole of who I am, and most surprising of all, I’ve learned to love myself.
How will you re-invent yourself this year?
After being away for a while, it feels good to write again. A lot can happen in just a few weeks. Your whole life could change!
As I was stuck in traffic, we were a single file line of cars slowly crawling up the overpass. The clouds were so beautiful that it seemed like we were on an escalator to heaven. It’s these little appreciations that make life worth living.
Being “me” seems natural now. It’s the negative judgments after the fact that made it such a chore. Without that, life is much more enjoyable.
Some people try to tell me what life is, but I already know. Life is this plant that I’m doing my best to revive. Life goes on at the shop.
There are things I enjoy every day, so I focus on what I enjoy, and let go of the rest. I don’t try to control what I can’t control. I can take care of a plant, but I can’t make it grow.
The things I’ve learned over the years have served me well. I feel like myself. All the things that weighed me down are falling away, or maybe I’m now able to let them go.
I got up extra early to work, and realized I was enjoying myself. I enjoy my life. It’s good to appreciate feeling good.
In many ways I’m still doing the same things I’ve done over the years, but I think I have a broader perspective these days. Even things like feeling angry is more appreciated. There’s external and internal growth taking place.
I’m letting things unfold; letting it be. True influence comes from a strong spirit. The mind can be closed or opened.