I’m focused on embodying myself these days–really feeling what it means to be me–so I’m not trying to use my intellect to be happy. Intrinsic motivation is the only thing that’s truly fulfilling. Life flows into open spaces.
I’m enjoying art, writing, and music. There’s nothing for me to solve anymore. I’ve gone through the tough stuff, and now all I want to do is appreciate everything.
I know that whatever has gone away can be replaced by something greater. This is what it means to be a (better) man. That’s what it means to be human.
At the heart of re-inventing myself is the principle of intrinsic motivation and reward. Doing things for intrinsic reward means being uncompromisingly true. It’s unfamiliar territory, but the key is to make the unfamiliar familiar.
Intrinsic rewards feel satisfying, fun, interesting, fulfilling, right, good, and perfect. Trying to get extrinsically rewarded feels like second-guessing myself, self-doubt, approval-seeking, people-pleasing, fear-based, anxiety-driven, worrisome, comparing myself to and seeking validation from others. So yeah, intrinsic rewards are way better.
I’ve found that deciding to live from the inside out means not going back to the old ways of living. You can’t half-ass being true to yourself. You wouldn’t buy falseness from yourself, and neither will other people.
WordPress informed me that this is our 11 year anniversary! The mind boggles! I started this blog in my 20’s and now I’m a thirty-something.
Achievement vs Accomplishment
WordPress calls this 11 year anniversary an achievement, and I agree. I think there’s a distinction between an achievement and an accomplishment. An achievement is something you accomplish that gives you a sense of pride (and you enjoyed doing it); an accomplishment is something that may or may not be enjoyable – or necessarily worthy of pride – but hey, you did it.
Intrinsic motivation is essentially taking inspired action. I have decided and choose to follow my intrinsic motivation. This blog post is a perfect example of that.