I love authentic people, and living authentically is probably my highest value in life. When I love people, it’s about as authentic as humanly possible. With that said, one of my biggest lessons is that it’s not my job to save people.
When you’re authentic, your life becomes great, and not everyone is going to be comfortable with that. Sometimes you compromise yourself, but that’s not something you can keep up and be happy. I’ve had to let go and let God many times.
For idealistic people, burnout is a real danger. Our minds give us energy, but our body needs to rest and have real food, not just ideas. We need to take care of ourselves.
Sometimes I wonder why it’s so quick and easy for me to focus love onto others, but focusing that same love on myself feels foreign. It’s one of those unfamiliar things that I’m devoted to becoming familiar with. As I look upon myself with the same admiration, esteem, friendliness, and respect that I afford others, I feel at peace.
Today, I want to talk about vocation.The main reason I blog is because I enjoy it, but also because I love writing. I do it every day because that’s what works for me (and it’s an excuse for me to take photos).
Being an Artist
If you’re interested in my art and illustration work, then I invite you to check out sedonethongvilay.com. I’m currently brainstorming how to integrate all of my interests and talents into a synergistic whole so that I can put my ideas, creativity, services, and products out there in the world. The good news is that this is as clear as I’ve ever been about it.
Being a Writer
GBM has always been about self-improvement–and it’s definitely helped me improve myself–but it’s also helped me to improve my writing skills. Blogging and writing every day has made it easier for me to face the blank page. I’m working on (and intend to write and publish) a series of books, and GBM feels like the right/write space for that.
Being a Musician
Performing music is a more recent endeavor, but I’ve always loved it. I have ideas for videos which will complement my art and writing, and I want to include my passion for music. My intention is to write and perform my own songs one day.
I’m in the process of establishing a personal brand. As such, I’m calling myself an artist, writer, and musician. It’s important in life to follow your dreams, and achieving your dreams is all about clarity, focus, and vision.
I was looking for the love of my mother, father, women, men, employers, and even strangers, but finally saw that the love I was seeking was my own. In my darkest hour, all I could say was “God loves me” over and over, and that turned out to be the truth. Self-hatred was such a burden; poisonous, dark and destructive.
So where am I now?
Well, the self-hatred is still there, sometimes, but I don’t think it’s real; no more real than self-love. I see that I can choose either one, and not blame; not give up my power. I can reclaim and remember my birthright.
I know who I truly am.
What came before is an interesting story, but it’s all just stories in the end.
Some people take great joy in traveling to foreign places and beautiful locales, and while I love the idea of doing that, I sincerely enjoy simple pleasures like finally having my very own place to call home. I also enjoy having my own bank account after all these years. Small things to some, maybe, but the sense of accomplishment, for me, is huge.
The Year of Re-invention
2017 will be the year I truly re-invent myself, and perhaps it’ll be that for you, too. Re-invention starts at ground zero (from scratch); letting go of who we thought we were, and being a nobody; empty of preconceived notions and assumptions. And yet, within this nobody are all the years of accumulated wisdom and life experience that will guide us from within, and give us the confidence (and courage) to go on.
I’ve found that being who I truly am does feel a bit foreign, but it also feels right, and expansive. I used to agonize over who I’m supposed to be, how I’m supposed to act, and why I feel like a bunch of separate people in one body rather than a whole (and happy) individual. I’ve learned to honor all of the different parts of myself that make up the whole of who I am, and most surprising of all, I’ve learned to love myself.
How will you re-invent yourself this year?
There’s value in taking the high road. When given the choice between loving or hating, we can choose to love. In life, we may encounter situations in which we think, “that doesn’t seem right”, but we can choose to take the high road.
And what’s the high road? It’s the middle way. We each have our own inner compass to guide us.
I allow others to follow their inner compass while I follow mine. I put my faith and trust in my inner guidance rather than in the behaviors and words of others. The leading edge of life is in being your own person.
No one is making us do anything, and even if they were, they can’t make us feel what we’re feeling. It’s our choice to be happy.
I had the power I was seeking all along; the power to love. I have nothing to prove to anyone else, but everything to prove to myself.
There’s a profound and sublime beauty and joy when things finally make sense, and fall into place. It’s neither wrong to want to control things, or to let them be.