Keeping (Myself) Honest

It’s another wake up from a dream at 3am (technically 2) kind of night. I did my usual things, and also having a – the more things change, the more they stay the same – kind of moment.

As I was browsing through some older entries, I reminisced about the ups and downs of life, how people have come and gone, yet here I am still writing on my blog. I think of it as keeping myself honest.

I’m not one to dish out advice. I have a hard enough time taking my own. I believe in figuring out my own path and letting others figure out theirs.



Waking Up at 3am (Again)

I woke up from yet another dream at 3am, which tends to happen when I’m going through big changes in my life. In my dream, I literally had a phone call that woke me up. My mind’s a prankster.

As I’m thumb typing this post – about to go back to sleep – I’m conscious of wanting to be less conscious. What I mean is that I associate dreaming with my subconscious (whatever that is). I want to write this from a spontaneous place.

“Through thick and thin” is a sentiment that’s important to me, but instead of applying it to other people, I’m applying it to my relationship with myself.



Simply Being Happy

I watched movies with my dad last night as I often do, and I rather liked drifting off to sleep in such a way that I didn’t realize I’d fallen asleep. I woke up a couple of hours later and made a cup of coffee. Soon I’ll be back to sleep again.

I enjoy my life at the shop. I don’t think that invalidates my past experiences, or that uncertainty is bad. What I am certain of is that I can be happy in a lot more situations than I’d realized, and I keep showing that to myself.

The ability to be happy because I choose to be is what I truly want. Everything else comes from that. Now that I’m figuring this out, life is simpler.


Appreciating (A Year Later)


If and when I wake up early, I light incense and make a cup of coffee, and usually blog. I have a routine, and eventually get sleepy again. Yesterday, I did a lot of good work in the shop.

It’s Christmas Eve, and just a year ago I was sitting alone, anxious about how I was going to pay the rent. A year later, many things have, and continue, to change. I’m better now than I was before.

These are the constants in my life: who I am, and my love for the things that I love. I take comfort, refuge, and strength in my True Self. I appreciate myself, my life, and the world I live in.


Calling Mission Control

The process of letting go of resistance can make me sleepy, so I’ve taken several naps since yesterday. It could also be a way for my higher mind to communicate with me through my dreams. And, I could just be tired.

I’m shifting from a conditional perspective of life to an unconditional one, and it can feel somewhat out of body. The things that keep me grounded are my work and relationships, but there’s also an internal connection to my True Self that continues to grow stronger.

If my ego is an astronaut, he’s certainly explored the far reaches of the solar system, and has sometimes felt lost (in space). Feeling alienated and alone, Astronaut Ego is now receiving transmissions from mission control, and it’s exhilarating. There are so many stories and ideas to share with each other.


Appreciation 2

source: Sedone's Sketches
source: Sedone’s Sketches

Since this week is about the Body Life Area, and I also want to write about the things I appreciate as I approach the 500th post (the next one!), this article is going to be about my appreciation of sleeping and napping.

I’ve written about my interesting relationship with sleep, like in the article Give Me Liberty (I’ll Take a Nap). If I’m not wanting to go to sleep, I find it’s better to get up and do something, which usually makes me sleepy. It helps if I think of it as taking naps of varying length.

The feeling of wanting to go to sleep is one of my favorite things, along with waking up feeling rested. Something I’ve intuitively known is that whenever I get stressed out, the best thing to do is take a nap. It acts as a reset button. Another important thing for me to do after waking up is to think simple, good feeling thoughts. Rumination can run rampant before going to sleep, and while waking up. I used to say “no room for rumination.” Now I talk to myself about the things I appreciate, and I’m starting to have a positive relationship with sleep once again.

I appreciate having a comfortable place to sleep, whether it’s on my couch or bed. I know many people have to follow a sleep schedule , and they can’t take naps whenever they want. For me, it’s important to design my lifestyle around my energy cycles. I see it as a part of my vocation. I tried the typical 9-5 schedule (or whatever it is these days), but it didn’t work for me.

Writing this article has made me kind of sleepy.

Sweet dreams!


GBM Podcast Episode 8: “Funky Midnight Eggs”


In this episode of the Getting Better, Man Podcast I take you on a culinary journey that’s one part inspired and two parts insomnia.

Drums by Jim Dooley