You can say you’re letting go and moving on, but one of the hardest things to let go of is that sense of identity. The new way of life is going to feel very unfamiliar. It really is like a caterpillar changing into a butterfly.
Sometimes it’s the pain that reminds us to stay on the new path. The old way is so obviously not wanted that we’re determined never to go back. Pain can be useful like that.
Of course, there comes a day when we realize that this is the path we’re supposed to be on, and no power on earth can keep us from it. I get glimpses of that feeling, like sunlight peeking through clouds. That’s when I see that this is a journey of the heart.
I’ve written about self-improvement a lot, and have done a lot of it. I’m at a point in my self-improvement journey where the devil’s in the details, as they say. It’s the little things that are still thorns in my side, and the daily habits that require devotion.
I have stories I want to tell, and books I want to write. Self-improvement is a great thing, but to what end? My intention is to use it to create art, write books, and play music.
Creativity is a daily thing. It’s easy to forget about it as we get caught up in earning money. Creativity is ultimately a spiritual path.
On the journey of self-improvement (it’s a journey not a destination), you never know what’s going to be a profoundly transformative experience. Right now, my big transformation is letting go of living up to my parents’ expectations, which ultimately is what letting go of approval seeking is all about. There’s a feeling of grief and sadness in saying goodbye to an old version of myself.
Much of self-improvement is preparation. You prepare yourself–spirit, thoughts, emotions, body–for that moment when something ignites your soul on fire. While it’s exhilarating to expand into a greater version of yourself, there must be a cooling down period in which things must reform.
We can never go back to the way things were, but sometimes we want to. When we can stop wanting to go back, then we can truly go forward. We have to want to change before it can happen.
Choosing to no longer seek the approval of (and trying to please) others may be the most challenging thing we ever face. Sometimes anger is our only way out, but when the anger subsides, we can feel the familiar pull of old habits. However (and whenever) it happens, turning the corner is the difference between night and day.
The Great Equalizer
Happiness is the great equalizer. We can never really tell if anyone else is truly happy. We can never truly make anyone else happy unless they really want to be happy.
I have to admit that as focused and (authentically) happy as I am now, through everything I’ve learned and overcome, there’s still pain and resistance to being happy, which requires all of my wisdom (as well as others) in order to find peace. It takes a deep and abiding appreciation of the journey and the process of life. We weren’t born to please others; we were born to be true to ourselves, and the sooner we realize that, the better we’ll feel.
How many people before me have watched the sun come up every morning? I want to be like the steady sun; sometimes cloud covered, sometimes standing alone. Let all of the myriad thoughts and emotions fall in line as planets around an inner source of light.
Being able to see clearly is a great advantage. If I were to sum up what it was all about these past couple of years, I’d say clarity. Mental sharpness and emotional clarity came from it.
The mind is like an infinitely sharp knife. If we were to use such a knife, we’d want to focus on what we were doing. That’s my approach to the way I use my thoughts.
Every day we get to check our map to see if we’re headed in the right direction. We’ll go on many adventures and face many challenges on this journey, but that’s the whole purpose. Life is an odyssey, and we’re on our way home.
Blogging is one of those things that surprises me by how long I’ve kept up with it. The years have flown by, which probably means it’s something I truly enjoy. Blogging helps me to discover who I am.
The journey is about self-discovery. Self-discovery is “an act or process of gaining knowledge or understanding of your abilities, character, and feelings” (according to Siri). I like that.
There’s nothing out there that’s happening to us. It’s co-creative and cooperative. The way we are within must be reflected without.
Isn’t it strange how we got here? What a long journey it’s been, yet it feels like just yesterday (when we first met). I guess, day by day, we’re building a life.
I see myself in you. We must have decided to take this journey together. It’s so wonderful to have companions.
Let’s sing and dance and send ripples out into the universe. Who knows? Maybe our inspiration comes from the dreams of fellow star children.