To be honest with you, in this life, I don’t know how to separate myself from the roles that I play. I also don’t know how to not play a role. For example, I don’t just write, but I’m playing the role of a writer.
Is there some holistic, penultimate, unifying person that I’m supposed to be? The Self? Maybe, but I’m not completely aware of it.
So I continue to play the various roles of my life, all the while being aware that I’m doing it. There’s someone there at the heart of the matter who feels like me, but he/she/it is invisible and often imperceptible.
I’d be doing myself a great disservice – and by extension, my audience – if I were false. Being truthful and sincere has long been a theme here, and that will continue. I have an internal compass that I can’t lie to.
In a world full of sugar-coating, I’m a fire that burns away everything that’s false. What’s left is real. It’s something you have to experience for yourself.
I’m not trying to be right, nor do I want to be. All of this has been written in some way by a future version of me, and when I re-read it months or years from now, it rings true. That’s all I can ask of myself.
A self–fulfilling prophecy is a prediction that directly or indirectly causes itself to become true, by the very terms of the prophecy itself, due to positive feedback between belief and behavior.
That’s the amazing and also scary thing about self-improvement, which is really another term for truth-seeking; when you have the courage to face the truth about who you truly are, your life will change in miraculous and sometimes terrifying ways.
When I look back at some of the things I wrote down years ago, the power and truth of it takes my breath away. I was intuitively prophesying my own future. It hasn’t always been easy, but it’s been immeasurably meaningful.
Being honest with myself and taking the third way.
I woke up to find that I had a couple of comments on one of my videos, but they turned out to be spam, but hey, it’s a start, right? Making these recordings–and sharing them with others–is important to me in a way that I can’t completely describe. I’ve felt this way at other times in my life, and it was always transformative.
I’m at a point where I can’t go back to the way things were, and I mean that figuratively and literally. Life has a way of showing you the raw truth, one way or the other. Learn to trust the Universe, or be broken by it.
Trusting in God is the same as trusting in myself. Approval seeking and people pleasing is basically worshiping the (good or bad) opinions of others, and (for me) that’s immoral. I’m glad that I’ve experienced what I’ve experienced, I’m at where I’m at, and I’m doing what I’m doing.
In this recording, I talk about choosing the right path in life, being intuitive, and overcoming insecurities.
Devil’s Advocate: a person who expresses a contentious opinion in order to provoke debate or test the strength of the opposing arguments.
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We are all destined to realize our true self-worth, one way or the other. It’s not so much a calling as an inexorable pull. To the extent that we resist the pull of our true self, we are unhappy.
Letting go can be difficult because it can feel like a sacrifice. Sometimes we think we’re sacrificing, but we’re not. A true sacrifice usually has to do with the death of a dearly held belief, and most of us hate to be wrong.
It’s challenging to be unflinchingly honest with ourselves. There are so many ways we can be diverted from really getting to the heart of the matter. I continue to write, because this is my bastion of peace, and oasis of truth.